Why am I the way I am?

What is there to say?

I've been raised this way.

To cry is wrong.

So I kept it all inside.

Without knowing it, it drove me insane.

We dont speak emotions.

It's all laughin and ignorin.

Therefore i see things for what it actually is.

I dont show anyone my tears.

The only one who has seen them is the person i see in the mirror.

Tryin to see why I ended up here.

No matter how hard I try I fail.

It might be for my own good.

But is it possible that I unknowingly dont want to know?

Is it that horrible?

Why am I tryin to reject a part of me?

My memories are erased.

Nothing that can ever bring them back.

Doesnt matter if i put in all my time to know

I just wont.
Somethings tellin me that I dont wanna know.

What is really goin on below.

Below the laughs and jokin about.

There is a person who doesnt know who that person is..